me

2011-07-23T07:08:00.000+08:00

could have been, but did not.

2011-06-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

曲:严爵词:严爵黄婷

休息是为了走更长的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因为你我一直漫步
想要跟你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚谁比谁辛苦
爱到深处才会领悟
好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足
谢谢你是你陪我走过那些路
痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情也许能够重复
感动时分就算纷纷模糊
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最后
但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚谁比谁辛苦
爱到深处才会领悟
好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足
谢谢你是你陪我走过那些路
痛是以后无法再给你幸福
好的事情也许能够重复
感动时分就算纷纷模糊
不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

不要哭至少你和我记得很清楚
爱是为彼此祝福

2011-05-26T12:22:00.006+08:00

♥ there's a place in our hearts where nothing else matters except you and me.
meet me there... ♥

2011-05-25T15:41:00.001+08:00

I love long bus rides listening to songsss..
On the side note, last paper to go, 2 more days to go and then off to loads of shopping at bkk! :)

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2011-04-12T02:10:00.002+08:00

我给的全是伤害

2011-04-08T01:23:00.002+08:00

i think girls/women in a group thinks they're very cute when they're afraid of my small dog.

but it just irritates the shit out of me.

for goodness sake, first, my dog is not a teeny bit interested in you. second, you dont even look a tenny bit cute when you're scared of small dogs.

end of story.

-.-''''''''

2011-03-23T22:12:00.001+08:00

tell me why it still hurts.
:(

2011-03-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

pictures.

itoy.

2011-03-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

my first experience of gastric flu.
cold sweat, diarrhoea, vomiting, fever all came and visit me together.
:(

2011-03-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

i.hope.you're.well

2011-02-17T12:09:00.003+08:00

chased by many deadlines for assignments but its so hard to stay focused.
seriously i can choose to do so many other things but not my assignments.
its hard to juggle, need so much more determination than i have now.

2011-02-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

had a really good rest today.

the drowsy medicine let me sleep well. slept ALOT

2011-02-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

i want and dont want the sick bug to hit me.
dun wana feel sick but if i'm sick can rest at home!!
ok, shall go try and find drowsy flu medicine so i can sleep WELL till mornin!

2011-02-08T04:37:00.006+08:00

someone once told me "when it's unhealthy and it eats into you, then you know its time to leave"
i never really understood it till recently. i understand fully why the previous person wants to leave so badly merely after 2 or 3 months when her contract was actually for 6 months.

today was a long, tiring and bad day.
at 4 plus in the morning now, i try to go back to sleep after a pee but my mind is filled with so many trivial stuff to do at work, the people to thank for helping out at the event which i've yet to thank, reminding myself of things that i need to do which i'm afraid would slip my mind and blah blah blah.
i wonder why people are so unappreciative, there were bout 150 people there. there were only 2 who actually thank us for organising. the rest, they ate and left. no one even bothered to stay and help to pack up leftover food.
i shall not be like them, i wont ever wana be like them. i will go thank my intern friends who helped out. they should be thanked but apparently she "forgotten" to or perhaps she also took for granted that its what they owe to the company? haha, i really dunno man.

i now know how it feels to really dread going to work, drag yourself to work, fearing the "weather", not knowing what surprises or lao sai you're gonna get
my mission to start looking for another place must start this week man.

2011-02-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

我好累！！！

2011-02-04T12:29:00.002+08:00

hmm, somehow dun feel comfortable collecting hongbaos anymore.. esp from older relatives..
am i getting old le??!!
haha.. but anyways good food makes me happy!! :)
was super duper happy eating dinner yesterday, cooked by my fav ah yi
simply yummilicious!! :)

its a fat fat new year
>.<

2011-01-30T14:24:00.002+08:00

i'm in class and i'm bored.
i mean super duper bored
i wish for the class to end. i still have half an hour more
i'm cold, bored and need to pee
>.<

2011-01-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

hello gold hair! LOVES :)

2011-01-28T21:55:00.002+08:00

was generally happy today @ work until erhem came back.
mad du lan cus the moment she came back, start to lao sai again.
then nvm, the stupid happy hour started blah blah blah. no one was appreciative of my efforts to organise the whole thing never mind. then still keep harping on the fact tt i didnt cut the stupid kueh lapis properly. fucking du lan u know!! its just some stupid kueh lapis can... and then, didnt put in any effort still complain me.. wah laos, wad is this man. regarding my answer on whether i'd stay if they offer, i guess my answer is no. the patience level seriously running out day by day yet nothing you can do about it. just lan lan loh. and i swear over my life, i would never ever name my future daughter by the name of 'P'. or just a note to myself to steer clear of people with this name. seriously whatever loh.

due to my mad frustration, i decided to down a cup of cheap wine from the happy hour.
even my manager also downed a cup. haha, i guess we really just need to numb all of the shit.
and then, i started turning red like lobster. i dislike to drink loh, not only i turn red, it appears like i've some allergic reaction or something. not to forget i begin to talk and speak loudly. but all was good, i began to enjoy myself and even bypassed her presence. double woot.

went to class after that. after a few months of no studying, i forgot the fact that i was a good student who went to class prepared, meaning i've read the notes and stuff. but this time i didnt, work sucked away all my energy and memory space :(
its accounting again, which i hate hate and hate. i cant believe i need to deal with balance sheets, debit or credit nonsense again. as usual, catch no ball in the lesson, seriously regretted taking a-maths in sec school. if i'd taken POA, it wouldnt be so tough on me then
lesson involves me gorging on my m&ms again, trying really hard to concentrate but failed, plucking my nail polish from my nails and surfing facebook on my itouch. maybe next lesson shouldnt bring out my itouch. major distraction.. but, shall consider first.. hahah

sians max. lesson on sunday. and stupid accounting homework to do. booohoooo

2011-01-27T22:08:00.004+08:00

I GOTTA FEELIN, TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A GOOD DAY, TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A GOOD GOOD DAY~

me wish tomorrow's mood @ work would be bright and sunny tomorrow :)
there's a really high chance for that cus.... hehehehe.. and then i look forward to 1st feb cus... heheheheh again. omg, so biatchy. hahaha

anyways, i'm getting fatter AND fatter AND FATTER every day :(
everytime i walk past some people, they surely offer me food to eat leh. and being ~~a glutton~~ a nice girl, erhem, i have to accept their food. hahahah.. and then i feel so bad cus after i walk back to my office, i snack on m&ms and other miscellaneous snacks that i station on my desk
>.<
i cant deny that i like most people working there. most that i have interaction with are really nice to me. i'm gonna miss them and the food when i leave. hahaha... if only, there wasnt so much laosai and 'unpredictable weather', i would have wana gladly stay on... hmmm.. shall see how bah, one step at a time

tomorrow is my first day of class. mad sian cus i initially thought would be same class as my previous classmate but end up, we're in different class. means i gotta pray for good and nice group members for assignment. GOSH. sians max. give me good luck please!!

alritey, gonna go do my mask already, deteriorating complexion this few days probably due to all the snacking.
:(

2011-01-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

give it some beat.

2011-01-24T21:29:00.002+08:00

wonder if its because lack of sleep or moodswing.
today was packed with so many many trivial things to do.
mad frustrated cus gena lao sai-ed again.
normally i would have been able to tahan the lao sai but dunno why today cant and super bad mood.

BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT.

tomorrow ~~MUST~~ should be good day pleaseeee.

2011-01-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

i was superrr freaked out just now when i had to clear mimi away.
i have a very serious phobia of dead stuff.
>.<
to be honest i wasnt really sad that she passed away. it didnt make me cry
but clearing her was what made me super afraid and on the verge of crying cus of tt.
i didnt expect to see flies around.
吓死我了!!!!
it was the same feeling as when i had to clear the dead lizard away
i never wana do this again. next time i ki siao wana have hamsters again, please please stop me.

anyways, was clearing out stuff so that my new textbooks has space.
super sian can, i can never understand why i already threw away a damned big bag of stuff yet still no place for the books.
and i already threw away 2 bags but my bag drawer is still so full, just managed to close it.
-.-'''
clearing stuff is so difficult leh. i everything also want! and realise i really have alot of stuff that i cant bear to use now, keep thinking of using it in the new house which is like so many years later.
tsk tsk.

ok, me shall go watch my kangxi and make myself go LOL now.

2011-01-22T17:42:00.001+08:00

goodbye to my mimi...
sorry mama didnt love you enough..
mama was afraid of you when you were alive cus you always squeak and bite people
now that you're gone, i'm still afraid of you
i hope my san jie faster come home and help me......

2011-01-21T23:56:00.001+08:00

me wants to get a small pot of roses or bright colourful flowers to put in the office!!
we need to get rid of the gloomy feel or the dark environment. haha
we're machiam like plant vs zombie. we need the cutesy sunflowers
lol

2011-01-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

tired girl again. shall go sleep now..
i hope i dun gena anythin after tmr's morning interview. my nightmare pple leh.
sigh~

2011-01-19T21:12:00.009+08:00

in the MOOD to blog today :)
i promise pictures! strongly advised to skip if you cant stand me/ cant stand my zi lian photos. muahahahha

today's work was easy peasy.
only worked for 1 and a half hours? then went to run some errands with my 老板娘。after that was on half day leave, went to load my heavy textbooks home and then, bring my ah b out to celebrate belated bdae. :)

the trip was good. today was a splurge on cab day. after work cabbed to SIM to get my textbooks then cab home, cab to the cafe, halfway remembered i forgot to bring ah b's leash, can to turn back home, then cabbed there again and cabbed back home. totally dun wana think how much i spent on cab fare today. must have maxed out my low limit for cabs. lol

ah b was good except that he ate damned fast, refused to let me put him in the bag and that he salivated like crazy when there were dogs around. like super gross saliva, the kind you see in movie, the alien/monster's saliva. super EEWWWWW... lol

oh my god i just checked my timetable. goodbye fridays. and super oh my god cus got one module the class is at SIM. damned. sure reach home late one. :(

2011-01-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

"X" lao sai to me what can i do?
i have to chia sai loh.
suddenly feel like a personal assistant doing all the stupid bo liao stuff.
i should chillax.
end of march is coming.
jiayou jiayou!!

2011-01-17T18:58:00.002+08:00

me finally found a way to slack @ work. :p

someone come msn and entertain me from 8.30-6pm, mondays to fridays!!

muahaha

shall start training listening skills so i can listen to radio while still able to hear if someone calls me
my ears gotta work harder lah, after 2 mths of no music work environment, i finally decided i had enough. lol
MUSIC TOMORROW PLEASE!!!!

2011-01-17T12:23:00.001+08:00

aeroplane not nice to eat.

2011-01-12T20:20:00.001+08:00

i'm finallyyyyy going to lose weight, i think.

things are much easier said than done. but, i will have to

2011-01-08T17:08:00.002+08:00

DL.

2011-01-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

me is super funny today, yet again!! =x

at around 6pm, i was getting ready to balek kampong, packing my bag and all, till i realised i couldnt find my phone
super horrified can, imagine i dunno need to kope whose line to buy new phone and all...
kept recalling where i last placed it, went back to toilet to search for it, searched my messy table, searched bag, my drawer, nothing.
tried hard to recall what activities, places i went during the last hour,
called my phone many times, but it was on silent mode so didnt help.

then i suddenly thought of something and tried my luck.
there i found my bimbo phone lying inside the cabinet, apparently i was holding on to my phone looking for stuff in the cabinet, someone
came and ask for something and i locked my phone inside the cabinet
super -.-'''' !!!!!

maybe someday i might just go to some place and forget how to get back sia. machiam like senile like that
=/
still got any cure or not.....?

2011-01-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

me wants to watch hebe and taylor swift concert but both sold out.
super fast can...
>.<

2010-12-29T22:58:00.001+08:00

stayed till 7 plus @ work today.
suck to walk out of the office, passing by all the cubicles and all are empty. and u are one of the last 3 last ones..
:(
and super sian cus tmr morning need to continue doing whatever was left behind today, need to call unknown people to ask for things again
>.<

looking on the brighter side, only 2 hours of work tmr :)
happy hour starts at 10.30am tmr
hopefully everyone can eat faster and caterer can come and collect faster if not would be sad hour for us cus HR need to stay back and pack before we can leave.

hmms, super best. i forgot the courses that i registered for next semester and i lost the paper.
-.-'''
and why school fees increase so much sia!!!
damneddddd

2010-12-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

what the hell.

2010-12-26T20:10:00.003+08:00

better mood after seeing the miracle website

got all Bs for my modules, B+, B, B-.

super shocking. i was expecting to repeat one or two of the modules le..

i know if my case like that also can get Bs, alot of pple sure get BETTER than me. but never mind, i gotta admit i really didnt put in sufficient time n effort so the grades are more than i could wish for...

okok, i must work harder next semester! must get what grades then will have what class degree huh? somebody enlighten me so i can have a goal!

heeeheeeee :)

happy shit to see the page. muahahahha

2010-12-20T00:24:00.003+08:00

tolong, tolong ~~please let this weekend come faster~~ please let my contract period end faster.
end of march, like so bloody far far away.. but then again, after my contract, must balonglong again?
life's a bitch. do this also cannot, do that also cannot.
results are coming out soon..? i guess by then i might forget to check. and it might be a good thing.
please please dun let me repeat any module.......

sleep time! :)

2010-12-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

oh my god.
release of exam results on 23rd Dec.
super mood-killer lah.
never mind, shall wait till 28th then check! cannot spoil holiday mood!!!!

cant wait for the week to be over. so many things to do at work. BOOOHOOO :(
reach office in the morning, cant wait for lunch time to come.
after lunch time, cant wait for 6pm
but seriously, time really flies there.

2010-12-13T22:31:00.002+08:00

excited max about the singing competition on thurs!! been practising just now.. hehehhe

oh my godddd, i'm feeling TIRED + SLEEPY again.
shiat, sleep bug, leave me alone!!
ok, goodnight people~

2010-12-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

love and hate the x'mas event
:(
initially thought most of the stuff were settled, that only left with decorations to be done on the day itself, but end up still got many to be done. by me. oh my god, so super sad. i thought very relax go there sing song n get 150 bucks(oh my god i say till like i sure win.. LOL)
and had to go buy stuff these few days end up got alot of work undone need to bring home n do. ULTRA sad.
:(((((((((

thinks i'm having hormonal imbalance >.<
my appetite is like....... on the peak of the roller coaster for these past few days?
and LNG 2 times in a month? wad the helllllll
wow.. maybe i am really stressed out. hmmmmmm

ok, gotta stop slacking and start working :(
i wish weekends would never enddddd

2010-12-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

i'm fat again.
SIAN
skinny only lasted 2-3 weeks for me.
:(
all good things come to an end.
DIET STARTS TMR.
i should stop having cravings for old chang kee/jagabee/kinder bueno.

i blame it on the stupid stomach too.
can u imagine everyday when the clock strikes 12pm, your stomach GROWLS LOUDLY, as if shouting for food. total embarrassment to the max cus everytime it growls so loudly that people can hear
>.<

tomorrow is the beginning of fighting alone.
my guardian angel, joanne has officially left and i'm all on my own now.
:(
impossible to survive a day without a to-do list, based on my memory capacity. SIGH

tired to the max! been wanting to read up on all the instructions and stuff but simply too lazy and tired to do so. :(
weekends, i await your arrival!

i'm not a superwoman.
"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."

2010-11-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

mentally tired to the max.

i cant explain how much i hate speaking on the phone with strangers :(

super scared stiff ok and i was so nervous that my hands turned COLD.

and gena suan-ed badly cus of that, said i cant make it if merely arranging for interviews with candidates i already so nervous :(

there are so many things to learn, guess i've been sheltered for too long, its time to grow up.

me needs MUSIC super badly. cant wait for work to end so i can drown myself with the songs

fridays, u will be here soon right?! i miss u so bad!!! >.<

2010-11-25T18:52:00.003+08:00

我也累了。。。

昨天我终于恍然大悟，发现“累”这个字其实只不过是一个借口。
我以前真的是好傻，好天真。
每次当我听到他对我说他好累，不想和我聊天，我只能很无奈地接受，埋怨为什么他的功课那么多，永远有做不完的事情。当很多人告诉我那只是一种借口，我一直都不相信，每次都安慰我自己说那是因为他们都不了解他。
但是，我昨天终于明白了。“累”只是用来安抚对方。因为事实就是，你根本都不想和他聊天，而最好的理由便是：“我累了”。
如果对方不能接受，那只会显示他不够体贴，所以每个人听到别人说累了，都会让他去休息。“累”这个字真的是个“好”借口！

yes, indeed things have turned to the bad side so quickly. i wouldnt deny, i feel sad about it. afew days ago, i cried like mad again just hours before my exam paper. i cried about how we have changed, how you and i have changed. its sad and scary how i cant picture you and i together anymore.. as much as i didnt want to, but undeniably, things between us have really changed. with or without him around, we would still realise it, it was just a matter of whether we realise it sooner or later.

feelings in humans are so bloody scary, they come and they go as and when they like. and when its gone, its almost impossible to chase it back and all u can do is to let go and watch it slip away from your hands.. are humans meant to live in solitude?
sometimes i really feel i'm not courageous to step in.. the whole thing is like a vicious cycle. first you become friends, then you fall in love, you give the whole of your heart to him, time passes, things changed, he returns you the heart that you gave but that heart is already broken and torn. you feel like your heart is ripped open everyday without his presence. and the most important thing, you lose your friend and someone who was once so dear and close to you.

谢谢你的美好。。。。

2010-11-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

today's a tiring good day.. :)

studied till 3am last night all cus i slacked too much in the day.
my meaning of slacked too much? going to the salon to dye my hair from 11am-2plus pm when i could have used the time to study
super slacker right?! >.<

but anyways, firstly i kissed goodbye to black roots!! how i wish my hair can grow out to be golden brown instead of black
:(

back to my topic, i managed to scrape through studying and the exam was alright..
hopefully can pass bah! :D

and today i got a good phonecall and so after 2 months of balonglong, i'm going back to work loh!! :D

starting work tmr!!

2010-11-21T18:01:00.001+08:00

gosh.

Sad P E...

-.-'''

2010-11-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

me wana MJ

ME wana MJ

ME WANA MJ.

i hope for good news on monday. i need the kaching kaching already lah!

and cant wait for my last paper on 26th! getting older, memory failing and studying sucks to the max

2010-11-18T00:57:00.005+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE.

SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST TAKE A GUN AND SHOOT ME DEAD.

I CANT WAIT FOR WORLD END ON 2012.

i know i'm of no position to feel upset. i brought it upon myself. but i never wanted all of these to happen, i really dont. and i dont know why heaven has to play such a huge game with me. if letting me deal with a heartbreak previously wasnt enough, this had to happen. how much worse can it be? is this whole thing just a prank played on me?

somebody, please tell me this is all a bad dream and i will wake up from it

or put things simpler, somebody just kill me. perhaps then it'll benefit everybody. perhaps all along those who hate me are right, i'm really such a bitch.

exam starts on saturday. honestly, it'll be a miracle that i'm able to pass it. i dont even feel like goin for the exams or even studyin for it.

seriously, FML

2010-11-14T15:27:00.004+08:00

in a confused state and not wanting to think about anything..
can i just like take one step at a time?

yeah, i agree i trust people, anyone, everyone too easily
cus i dont see the need why anyone would have to lie or have hidden motives for being friends..

perhaps when mama gave birth to us, 防人之心 element was not included in us. i dunno about the rest but it applies to me and san jie. just tt all along she has been really lucky, almost all she met were good.. yeah she's really lucky..
but me on the other hand, no such luck.. i find myself meeting wrong people, trusting wrong people and often finding myself either taken advantage of or that i end up regretting why i'd been so stupid as to believe in people so easily :(

do you all live in this world always in doubt of everyone and their intentions? living in this world is already complicated enough, doesnt all the doubts and suspicions you have for everyone, make it even more difficult and complicated? or is that really what you should do in this world so as to best protect yourself? what do you think? =/

2010-11-11T23:36:00.001+08:00

what is happening to me???

2010-11-09T17:33:00.001+08:00

我想要寻找什么样的感觉？

2010-11-03T12:31:00.003+08:00

i'm supposed to start my revision since monday but i've been so lazy lah. i've yet to cover even 1 chapter of the stupid hrm module >.<
was thinking of investing my time on the study guide but at the same time the study guide looks very abstract and i very scared that i will buang depending only on the study guide but the damned textbook is too long-winded and so thick! :(

so let me update about my volunteer trip.. :P
when i reached the dog shelter, it was really quite shocking cus the dogs there are all HUGE. as in when they stand up, they'd be somewhere my height and that is not emphasising the fact that they are all really small dogs, maybe half the age of my ah b. and when i was brought into the first "cage", there were 6 dogs inside and all of them came and surrounded me. i was super freaked out cus 1 of them stood and pounced at me, i was abit thrown off balance and i got a kiss from that dog literally on my mouth. after that i was quite scared whenever any one came and checked me out cus i actually have phobia of big dogs after being chased by one when i was in primary school.

there wasnt much things to do, there were quite alot of volunteers there and they all knew what they could do. so the clueless me just sat there and pet the dogs until they asked me if i wanted to walk the dog. walking the dog was also a big difference from walking my ah b. firstly, their collar is like really super thick metal kind. and as i mentioned, they were big and i had to use 2 hands to control it. initially, the dog literally pulled me cus she was really excited and i was damned scared, imagine the dog who has more energy than you and is taking control of you! after that i got to know from another volunteer that the female dog that i was leading likes to run. -.-'''

i super hate running de. but for her sake, i ran and most part i was dragged by her. oh no, she didnt make me run. she literally made me sprint. it was difficult to stop her cus of her huge amount of energy and also cus the leash was at her collar. if i pulled, it'll kinda like strangle her and therefore i was reluctant to do it. needless to say, when i finally reached the pet shelter again, i was SWEATING like mad. even some of them there were laughing at me. -.-'''

but at the end of it, somehow i think the dogs there are somewhat happy? cus they are in quite good condition. they're all quite friendly.. i used to think my ah b very gentle whenever he takes food from our hands, i thought other dogs would bite it off your hands, but surprisingly the big dogs here, they all do the same as ah b.. and it feels weird peting a dog whose forehead is already bigger than the size of my palm. i saw cute/funny stuff like the dogs there really like to chase flies and i even saw a mother dog humping her own children. LOL

i guess i'll still go down there again but the journey is super long, the place is at pasir ris. and so, probably i'd not be such a frequent visitor. =xX

alritey, ending my post here... time to start to revise again!! >.<

2010-10-26T23:11:00.003+08:00

SHOPPING MAKES ME HAPPY.
ABLE TO FIND CLOTHES THAT ARE WITHIN MY MEANS AND LOOK GOOD, MAKES ME HAPPY.

AND I CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY!

2010-10-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

i've suddenly been so inspired after watching the volunteering show on tv just now..
you know i've always wanted to volunteer at pet shelters and stuff.. but never actually got to do it cus no one to do it with me and the idea just fizzled out.. so now, i've set my heart to do it and have emailed one pet shelter, now awaiting their reply.. as long as the shelter is accessible by public transport, i'd be willing to do it! ok, so anyone wants to join me? :P

and then the show also showed how the poor kids at nepal wanted to study so badly as they feel powerful with knowledge and believe that it is something that no one is able to take away from them. with knowledge it brings about better jobs so that they can be able to break the poverty cycle of their family. perhaps we in singapore really took education for granted.. we have the ability to study and yet many times we are lazy and just fuck care about our studies..

i know this sounds like a 3 minute fever for me yet again. haha.. i'll really try my best to remember this episode and perhaps my motivation can go longgggg..
ok, now its time to start revising!
*note to self: 1 more month time! knowledge is power!!!*

2010-10-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

i feel so strongly for this song. HAHAH..

我寂寞寂寞就好。。你真的不用来我回忆里微笑。。
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了，赖着不放掉。。
人本来就寂寞的，我总会把你戒掉。。

2010-10-01T13:22:00.003+08:00

Are you here because....

(a)you really do care about whats going on in my life, be it happy or sad...

(b)my blog is just a form of entertainment for you, whatever stuff i write, happy or sad, you'll just read and move on to the next blog?

this question has been in my mind on and off after the emo posts i written 2 weeks ago. i mean i roughly know who reads my blog.. did my emo posts 2 weeks ago even sound like i was alright? but no one really cared enough to msg and ask how i was, at the time when i needed it. my emo posts were here for days, but no one asked me anything about it..
but the moment when i changed my msn nick, i sounded upset and someone whom i'm not very close to immediately asked me what happened. till now, i'm still grateful for her asking me at that point. and it really goes to show right?

yeah, so, i presume the option is B then. but thanks, cus i really know now...

2010-09-29T23:33:00.003+08:00

help man. i really need to get away from this house. staying at home makes me surf web=spending money.
today i went to the market and passed by an optician shop. thought of just going to check whether they have coloured contact lensed for astig. since my frequented optician shop told me its not out in the market, i was just tryin my luck and who knew, i ended up leaving the shop 90 bucks poorer. yes cus they apparently do have color contact for astig but of course at a steeper price.

then the stupid thought struck me very hard. why cant i have perfect vision and wear chio colour contacts? so i went home n researched on LASIK. found one at a hospital and called them to ask a few stuff.. then called my sisters and apparently da jie was willing to do it with me, cus she has also been thinking of doing LASIK. so everything got settled in a few hours time. i booked for appointment for checkup to see if we're suitable to do LASIK. i was even prepared to go to class with glasses and without makeup.

then i continued with my research, going to forums and reading from those who have done LASIK before. apparently, one of the side effects was that the patient would get dry eyes, blur vision for a few months before the vision can stabilise etc..and there's no way u can wear color contacts after LASIK cus the shape of ur cornea has been changed and you wont be able to fit in contact lenses anymore.
what really worried me was the dry eyes part. previously i had this problem when i was wearing permanent lenses, and the level of uncomfortable is really ......
u feel like something is there constantly poking your eyes and its super duper uncomfortable, get headaches and very bad mood.. my optician said i had dry eyes, my eyes cant produce enough tears to moisten my eyes thats why i feel that way. i've changed my lenses and not feel this way for so long, and i never wana feel that way again.. so side effect dry eyes is a big nono for me.

so apparently my jiefu knew about us wanting to do LASIK and also recommended me not to go. my sis was not allowed to go. lol.
so i have to make the dreadful call to cancel our appointment. super paisei leh. i hope i dont get back the same person who made the appointment for me.
i really wana slap my itchy hands!
*ANGRY AT MYSELF*

2010-09-29T02:27:00.005+08:00

brought ah b for a long walk at the canal before class today :)
i unleashed him for 3 quarters of the time there and he was so guai lah except for the times when he keep wanting to pee on trees.. peeing on tree is a big NO-NO cus he has to step on grass and grass are full of ticks! grrrr.. i hate them and ever since i discovered that not going to grass areas equals no ticks, i've never let him go near grass again.

at the jogging track when i called him, he stopped and followed what i asked him to do. and he must be wondering why his owner walk so slow, and keep calling him to slow slow. hee. :P
i tried to run with him but he also faster than me lah, so in the end i need to ask him to wait for me again. other joggers at the track must be thinking i'm a siao charbo. LOL

will bring him to walk again probably tmr if the weather is good! :)

cant wait for tmr noon to come cus i'm HUNGRY lah...
>.<

right now, my ah b is beside me sleeping and twitching again. today not only his hands and legs twitched and his mouth was also twitching. he must be hungry like mummy and dreaming of food. hahaha

2010-09-27T23:12:00.001+08:00

BORING.

on the brighter side, i scored 95/100 for one online quiz! yayness!
and the very dull side, got 60/100 for a group assignment.. :(
need to work extra hard for the exam so that my goal can still be accomplished..
>.<

i officially hate tuesdays and fridays. lesson days. booohooo

2010-09-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

today was a good-bad day. good for half of the say. bad started at 7pm. ARGHS

i'm on 减肥行动 now. bao bak zhang everynight. lol.. its the stuff i bought online.. ok, wrap already super depressed cus its like F***-ing tight loh. can see the 3 layers, 4 layers.. wah lao machiam like 'san cham ba'
walked home after class today. supposed to be a good exercise to walk from sp back home. but then, my 肚子不争气.. i passed by dover, and i went to da bao my fav kang kong to eat. boohoooo to myself...
:(

and i wana declare that i hate massey university and all the stupid exams, test, whatever shit!!
i must learn to be more understanding.. :(
less meet up, less msging, less chatting on phone, less everything..
:(

oks, to cheer myself up, i should go watch today's episode of 'walk in walk out' then i missed cus of class!

btw, i just realised that i've been quite active in blogging recently.. it's bad! i should concentrate on my studiesssss

2010-09-22T17:01:00.001+08:00

ok, i must be productive today! aims to finish up my 1,000 words assignment by today and participate in online discussion worth 20% marks! i hope i can finish without offtracking!!

>.<

2010-09-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

tell me why oh why every 2-3 months must fall sick?
irritating siaaaa
sore throat again...
:(

and i wana view my results of another assignment leh, but unisim website is under maintenance..
:(

2010-09-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

internet is HAZARDOUS

been shoppin online this 2 days. its gonna reach 100 bucks already. i should stop!! the main bulk going mainly to the website i just found today. got sell some wrapping stuff for ur arms, legs etc
so i decided to invest some money there, just try and see if it works.. if it does, very good for me :)
if not, then i'll kiss a blue note goodbye and next time will learn my lesson.

my hands just refuse to click on any microsoft application. it just chooses to open one internet explorer after another. sigh. i should really start on my assignment..
sad thing, i've yet to receive my assignment marks even though my friend weiling has already got it. we're in diff class.. apparently people from my class dont seem to have received anything. tsk tsk.

ok. should end this post and go start on my assignment!

its been one week since i saw mr neo. and probably gonna be more than 1 week. :(

2010-09-17T23:11:00.003+08:00

gena 放飞机 by er jie today.
-.-'''
not only that i gave up the chance to work today but also i gave up my sleep even though this morning it was raining so damned heavily, so nice to sleep in.
next time if she asks me again, seriously, i've to think THRICE.

after many years of wanting to change it, it is still there and i guess it will never be changed. tsk tsk.
i've always wanted to learn to hide my feelings. do not be like an open book but i still fail terribly at this. just nw i had tried so hard to hide my feelings by looking away, but i know, my facial expressions, i can even feel the bu shuang-ness written on my face. cus i felt bullied by them. HAIS

sometimes i wonder, why is it that they are all able to talk to her like friends? i mean i'm also part of the family, we're of the same age, why they're more willing to counsel her, to talk properly and more friendly to her? just cus my face looks more fierce, cus i'm more hiao? seriously i've never gotten this type of 'friendly' treatment from her. if she had spared me from all the nasty comments, i'd already have to thank god. ever since we were young i've been experiencing this. she's thought of as the angel, the one not capable of doing bad stuff while i'm the devil, bad stuff are always related to me. i seriously cant help but feel biasness and unfairness to the max.

2010-09-17T02:14:00.002+08:00

i wonder what my silly ah b is dreaming of..

cus he is lying on the sofa next to me and apparently in deep sleep cus he keeps twitching on and off.

i searched on the net once about dogs twitching in their sleep and it says that it means the dog is in really deep sleep, just like how humans do.. and twitching is normal, perhaps they were dreaming of playing with their favourite toys or running around the place. that explains the twitching of his hands n legs.. so amazing and superrr cute rite..

love loveeee

2010-09-16T20:58:00.003+08:00

today is a good lazy day :)

firstly i woke up and the stupid stucked pill seems to have disappeared already.. no more tightness of chest. phew..

painted my nails today

wanted to do some minnie mouse design with a black bow at every nail.. but i figured it was super difficult to draw the black bows so i gave up
>.<
now become like cartoon mushroom. lol

oks, i'm gonna go watch my tv now! :)

2010-09-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

ERHEM.

******VIEWER DISCRETION IS STRONGLY ADVISED*************

so what should you do when u work for 4 hours, go home and got nothing else better to do?

number 1: cam whore
number 2: cam whore
number 3: STILL cam whore

MUAAAHAHAHHA

anyways, i'm taking tablets that repairs/replenishes calcium for the bones cus of the bad knock i had last week and apparently i think yesterday one tablet got stuck somewhere and i've been having this very very uncomfortable feeling. the tightness of the chest. tried all sorts of ways, dranks loads of water, tried to vomit out but nothing worked. :(
i hope it will be ok by tomorrow cus i really feel very !!!! about this tightness lah!!!
>.<

2010-09-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

FUCKK.
i can tell u its a fucking sore feeling i'm having now. checked my group assignment. got 71 marks. went through the paper and found out that one question got 0 marks cus we did not attempt. i remembered stayin up and did that guy's question.
then i went to my email to check. the other guy who sent me his updated answer, dunno what happened, deleted answer for question 4 or something. cus in his version, didnt have quest 4 but when i sent to him there was the answer i did for question 4. ok, so when i got his answer, i assumed that everything was intact and his answer was updated so i submitted that one
fuck lah i forgot to check. indeed question 4 was missing n i dint realise it till NOW. when all is too late.
i know getting 71 already not bad but u know the feeling that we could have gotten more than that?
SIGH. i really wana beat myself up loh. paid a price for this lesson.
DAMNEDD!!!!

2010-09-12T22:26:00.003+08:00

watch-ed on saturday :)

its a GOOD movie! go catch it.. quite funny can LOL several times and at the same time has some life lessons to learn from the movie. i like! :)

was in a really bad state last week. but it led me to know who really bothers to at least ask how i am and who just didnt care.

anyways i'm ok now and am a happy fat girl again. LOL

2010-09-09T14:44:00.000+08:00

woke up today with a cut on my face, a small briuse on my chin and a big bruise on my kneecap.

how nice.

2010-09-09T00:41:00.003+08:00

surprisingly, goin to class today is the only thing that made me ~~happy~~ at least appear to be happy. knowing that we'd have a revision class where all necessary hints would be given is bonus point to today.

the only 3 hours where i could forget about all the stupid shit/worries that i have.

ever had trouble sleeping at night, where the only option you think of in order to sleep is to drink the cough syrup that causes drowsiness? lying on ur bed with your eyes wide open waiting for the drowsiness effect to hit u? and when the effect does come, u feel so light but it still doesnt drive u to sleep?
this period is really bad. seriously, FML

2010-09-06T01:27:00.003+08:00

amazing isnt it? how some people can totally make u feel like they're using u. like how they have an ulterior motive, perhaps to get ur help for something. tsk tsk

anyways, just realised my other individual assignment is due next week. damned GG. have to start now loh.

really wana get some work done so that i can relax during the long weekend. pls grant me my wish!!! is it really that i've worn too big a hat? as in taken too many modules? i haven felt like i have rested leh. one assignments after another. super OMG can. hais

2010-09-01T02:38:00.003+08:00

you know, the feeling of dread sets in again.
=/

on the brighter note, i've submitted 2 of my assignments today! left one more group one to go! guess i've learnt my lesson.. be VERY careful when choosing groupmates. do not be the only girl in the group. i very nearly wanted to scold them for the thing they send to me, for the extra things that i had to do for them and the points they're gonna get so easily. i really dun understand why the guys i meet recently are like THIS. seriously, what are all the guys turning into??!!! seriously wordless loh.

cant wait for the weekends again.. meeting mr neo only in the weekends can be good thing and bad. good thing that we can both concentrate to do our own assignments.
bad thing: times like this when i feel so -.-''' i wished he was here with me to bring some 'life' into my live.

on a random note, i downloaded this app on my sis hp called the river test. it says that only 10% of people in this world can solve the question. n i could do it leh!! go try it cus i wana know whether i belong to the 10% or everyone else also can solve de.. my first test sample: my ah yi couldnt solve it!
please do not cheat by looking at the answers.. and i swear i didnt look at the answers before..

GOOD NIGHTS EVERYONE

2010-08-25T23:47:00.002+08:00

i got this very fucked up feeling.

was supposed to start my assignment right now but i received an email from a classmate from another module, having problems with his question for another assignment. then he send me what he had done, i find that it is not right, in my opinion lah. cus his answer is completely irrelevant to the question. i spend a great deal of time convincing him that it is not what the question asked for. so ok, i was really determined he is wrong and he finally backs down and thinks that maybe he could be wrong. ok, so we're supposed to check with lecturer tmr. then i asked the other person who is supposed to do another question. he still hasnt submitted the draft, didnt hear anything from him when the deadline we're supposed to send our draft is on 23rd.

FUCK UNISIM AND ALL THE GROUP BASED ASSIGNMENT SHIT.
initially i thought maybe group based also not very bad. now i really wished it was individual. at least if i do very badly, it is MY OWN FAULT. damned sia. just a really really bad feeling OKKKKK

2010-08-21T17:10:00.003+08:00

Classes on a Saturday suck. Nearly had the thought to skip the class.. But being the erhem 'good' student that i' m striving to be, I still went ahead.. It's such a sucky thing that I just send my draft of one of my module to my classmate yesterday night and today another assignment was announced making me still owe 2 assignment. God I hate September! Full of deadlines for assignment! It's difficult but I gotta continue my hardworking-ness to get money incentive and a free meal. Haha, no lah.. Just think that I'm old enough, it's time I get serious and do something useful fir my future.. I must continue to jia you do that I can accomplish my goal: get the degree in the minimum of 3 years..

2010-08-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

Woo... Damned sian to have to study n work at the same time.. Nowadays quite sian to go home cus it means must study le.. :(

So long never watch tv already leh.. Sad life....

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you Peisun! Be happy always! :)

2010-08-11T23:14:00.001+08:00

tmr is the last ft day.
happy? not happy?
u decide.

ok now time to sleep again....

2010-08-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

san jie cooked dinner today.
i like the 肉丸! ate so many many of it
:)
suddenly miss my da jie's cooking..
>.<

been checking school's mailbox to see if class got gena canceled or not... but... oh well....
hahahha

2010-08-09T16:38:00.003+08:00

sigh. i feel so ......
seriously need alot of discipline to start study again..
feel so scared about everything.. dunno where to start, how to start..

mr neo gave me a really pleasant surprise yeterday.. he popped out on my door step at 1am and brought food for my sis n i..
and we studied together for afew hours after that.. LOVE LOVE..
i hope i can get used to all the times when we're not gonna be able to meet, FAST.
cus i feel really sore whenever i know that we're not gonna meet for a few days and i really cant bear to.. haissss..

ok, i should go back to reading hypnotising books now.
good luck for me
and happy birthday singapore...

2010-08-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

i dont know whether to consider it hard or its just cus i havent gotten used to it.

seriously i would have wished if i could have a full-time job, able to make it to walk my ah b before lesson starts, have enough sleep and pass all my modules with flying colours.
life's NOT all pretty and nice i guess.. =/

yesterday was my first lesson. sucked. lecturer talking alot of unrelated stuff and ending class late. argh

i must seriously be out of my mind to enrol in night classes based on the size of my guts. i nearly ran to the bus stop after class. first, its DARK in sp. secondly, not a single soul around. scared of ghosts, scared bangla catch me(cus got construction on-going)
i swear next time must go to the station with the rest of the people!

ok, good thing today is that i managed to submit my first assignment! its just a small online discussion but we havent even had any lessons before and ahead of me, about 8-10 people already submitted. damned, so i decided to be kiasu like them, i'm the 11th of the class. hahah

sigh, going back to school is scary shit for me.. if only i still had the memory power and the hardworking spirit i had years ago.. i need to find them back, FAST.

ok, now sleep time. but before i sleep i would like to say that i miss that mr neo alot. its only been 3 days that we havent met but it feels so damned long already. he used to stay at my house everyday leh, now 3 days never see already!! i hate changes. i hope the both of us get used to it soon and continue progressing.

ok NOW SLEEEEEEPPPP

2010-08-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

shirley ong amazed herself today.

called mr neo after work today..
a woman picked up the phone.
damned fucking shocked.
hello-ed several times
*first thought*: did i make the wrong call? called the wrong number?
checked my phone, yes it is mr neo's contact.
fucking shocked again
*second thought*: was his phone stolen?
so i asked, 'is this edwin's number?'
*third thought*: OH MY GOD. WHY A GIRL PICKED UP HIS PHONE? IS IT HIS NEW CLASSMATE?!!!DAMNED.
and then the mysterious girl answered my question.
'edwin? yah, this is edwin house number.'

omg, wtf, damned paisei. the girl is his maid. i called back mr neo's last dialled number to me, which is his phone number.

omg, i feel so embarrassed of myself.

LOL at shirley ong.

2010-08-01T23:13:00.008+08:00

stupid acne on my back. F swollen and F painful. argh.

met up with fen and gang on friday. not much catching up but seems like all havent changed at all. lol

sentosa-ed on saturday. sometimes its nice to just go some place and slack. away from shopping malls, away from all the crowds everywhere.. and we managed to catch fen in action in the volleyball competition! congrats on the placing! ;)

the 2 of them very boring cus they refused to take photos with me :(
had dinner at asian kitchen after that. my first time eating there and it's really not bad.. :)

guess i'll go there again to eat cus i really like the soft shell crabs! yummyyyy :)

went to er jie's hse just now.. look at lala.. so many shots, emotions almost the same.. LOL

and nana love using my camera to take super alot of random shots of everyone and everything..

another week has started.. booooo...

gonna go finish up my last 2 episodes of the HK drama.. hope i dun die tmr morning. hahahah

2010-07-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

thank you 'vaNiLLa' for pei-ing me to buy mac.
:)
although i think its my 可爱鸡 action that made u decide to go with me. hahahhaha

2010-07-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

check out my phone.. chio right!! :)

it feels so contradicting, when you're not ard i wish you're here with me.. but then when u are around... =X
must ren till friday! must start getting used to it.. it doesnt help much that he keeps tempting me..
>.<

2010-07-27T20:57:00.003+08:00

got my new phone already.. with alice in wonderland in gmask. gonna use the hp accessory that i bought in tokyo disneyland too.. :)

yeah, my da jie really dote on me.. actually not only her, all of my sisters dote on me alot.. just now i felt like a spoilt kid for asking for the phone. hahhaa. better not say i'd control cus i know i cant! but looking on the brighter side, i've not sold my old phone so next time if i'm bored with this already, i could change it back to the old one! :D

ok, the HK drama gets nicer and nicer, am going to go chiong my episodes already!

I LOVE YOU MR NEO ♥

2010-07-26T21:00:00.003+08:00

enjoyed 23/7/2010 with mr neo even though it was a simple day.. had nandos at bugis..

managed to get a seat just before the scary crowd filled in the queue. as seen on picture number 8, the queue was ridiculously long, the people in the photo was just like HALF of the queue. ate really fast cus didnt wana be inconsiderate and let the people outside wait f long for a dinner. you know hungry people are angry people... really pity the staff working there. i'd die if all weekends are like that. plus alot of the people there have alot of complaints and requests, i hear liao also buay tahan..
=/

you know i'm such a phone freak.. i'm gonna change my phone again.. and i'm so excited!! i want to get the phone, do the gmask all in one day lah!! hopefully gmask takes damned short time to be completed!! woohooo ~~i ♥ flip phones!!~~ i ♥ any chio phones!!

alritey, gonna go watch the HK drama that i rented. the one showing on ch u on weekends now. but its like a bo liao show leh, kinda waste money but still have to watch finish!!

2010-07-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

3 years, time seems to fly by fast.. but on the contrary, it feels like it should have been more than 3 years already.

its been a few days since mr neo has officially moved out of my house.. it feels weird, sometimes feel abit too quiet, wishing for his company.. but i finally got back my bed, which these few days has been giving me really good sleep

i just changed my bedsheets, back to kitty theme again. :)

so sad when i realised that my favourite kitty,

the sewings at the legs seems like its going to be torn already. double :(

why do all good things have to come to an end?? :(

maybe i hugged it to sleep too much already, should place it for display only now.

my plan to clear out some stuff to keep my books failed yet again. wonders when i'd finally manage to clear out the space.

2010-07-18T01:04:00.005+08:00

orientation today was alright, the only SUPER bad thing was the course materials! and the stupid bag that they were packed into. the handles made my hands turn red cus the packs were damned heavy and i had to carry 5 packs lah! went home and weighed the books, i carried 5kg of books around sim for about 4 hours.
>.<

and i think i really have an affinity with people/girls born in year 1983. haha, yeah, the new friend i made today and went for talks with, is a 1983-er.

oh and there was a bazzar there and there were some activities going on, look what i got!

the woman making this is super pro lah! it looks super real! and you know the dog's nose, even got 鼻孔 loh! cus we need to queue up for her to custom make for us but we went there too late, not enough time to make for everyone so we got to choose whatever that we wanted. actually wanted to make one that is grey colour, i bet it'll look like ah B loh!

alrites, lets have some cam whore time ok!

ah b forever wana lick whatever new stuff i intro to him

went to collect san jie and my shoes today.. nice?? :)

feel quite nervous about school starting.. dept head said on average people would take about 3 modules per sem but i took 5 leh. and i also not studious type de. die le loh. haisssss

slacking at home tmr cus i'm too tired to accompany my mr neo out to buy his lappy. =X

Alot of people say, its easy to fall in love with each other, difficult to maintain this love. Its true, it really takes alot, the longer you are together with each other, the more you'll take each other's company for granted. It takes alot of patience, alot of understanding.. It requires both to acknowledge and apologise for mistakes in order for this love boat to continue sailing further...

2010-07-16T21:04:00.003+08:00

似乎像心里的一块大石头被放下了。将会有很多的改变，一切充满了许多的未知数。。

-the path in life, long and full of uncertainties-

oks, tmr is my orientation and i'm actually dreading it.. going there, not knowing what to expect, the feeling suck. not even sure how to get to the place, whether my course materials are to be collected tmr. damned, really hate it. tsk tsk

just managed to login to the student portal, had to clear many mails and to find out that i missed my chance to use the money inside the edusave account, which i have not used before from pri sch till now. damned. its like 1000 plus inside the account that i cant touch. it was until today that i found out how to use the student portal and then also when i found out the application to use the edusave account ends today. thats the price i have to pay for not regularly checking out their website rite.... hais

pls wish me luck for tmr, hope i can get to know some new classmates or something like tt..
=/

2010-07-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

my thoughts, like a whirlwind.

2010-07-11T22:29:00.004+08:00

ikea-ed today.

accompanied mr neo and his parents, to get some stuff for his room..

my favourites from ikea. not forgetting the chicken wing, $1 hot dog bun and the vanilla ice cream. :)

but the menu today at ikea really sucked. with wrong judgement of the food that his parents want, i ended up eating salmon for the first time in 21 years of my life. and i swear it is going to be the last time that i'm ever gonna put that fish into my mouth. argh. sure, the first 3 mouth didnt taste so bad, esp with lots of sauce to cover the taste. but after that, i nearly puked cus the fishy smell was SO strong. bleh.

oks, gonna go paint my nails and sleep early tonight. hope my nail polish doesnt get smudged!

nites!

2010-07-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

went to collect my new passport today.. ICA is GOOD! i was about 5 min later than my appointment time. when i went there, got a queue number, in less than 5 min i was being served! its like super fast lah.. :D

great retail therapy today :)
shopping alone is SUPER destructive. spent about 200 just at my fav shopping place
=/
it feels good to buy buy buy but also feels bad that i burnt a hole in my account
>.<

despicable me is cute lah! and some parts are funnyyy.. the little girl so cute loh, kind of look like the little girl in monster inc.

2nd week in a row that i had mushroom soup at soup spoon/souperlicious, took cab back to mr neo's house and got car sick. vomitted the soup out again
phobia of mushroom soup le. the stench is like WOW loh.
should avoid soups on nights that i'm going to his house.
=/

so thats all for now! gooodddddbyyyeeessss

2010-07-10T01:01:00.006+08:00

fridays seem to be happy days for almost everyone! (even scary monster at work :P)
thought i was gonna get scolding for not asking something but i didnt! and in fact he came and told me what to do.. and helped me immediately (no black face) when i asked him something.. hahaha, if only all days can be like fridays for him lo.. then next time when i need help i will have no fear!

today i was walking my ah b and then one of the young office girl walked past us and actually stopped to pet my ah b.. then shortly after this uncle taking the same lift as me also sayang my ah b! on normal days everyone just look so sian luh, who even cares about a cute dog walking past them but friday is SPECIAL(i think), everyone is just so cheerful!

oh n a good news for myself, monday no testing leh! woohoooo.. mad happy :P

just started looking at taiwan sprees again =X
ordered a denim skirt for less than 20 bucks, if i didnt calculate wrongly! :D
and speaking of taiwan, i'm still waiting for jet star's sale sia :(
faster have sale on taiwan can!!!!

catching it tmr :)

2010-07-08T21:25:00.002+08:00

anger management failed again. i almost screamed at him. tsk tsk i know.

hard day at work, SPE super loads of files, fucking laggy.

the only good thing out of today is that danny gave me a ride home. haha

finally friday is coming le!! :)

2010-07-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

sigh, if only weekdays could pass as fast as the weekends.. :(

celebrated ah fen's bdae on sat.. steamboat at crystal jade. SUPER FULL. scary shit. hahah, we were too greedy.. so many xiao long baos lah!!
and followed by mahjong in my tiny room.. MJ rocks even though i only won... TWENTY CENTS! lol

sunday was like a mini day in childcare.. i miss ming ming!! and they are all so cute lah, ruixin keep wanting to hug nana, ruixin keep kissing lala, lala keep wanting to touch ming ming.. cute cute cute! subjected to the times when they're not crying n screaming.. hehehe

omg i cant believe its gonna be monday again.. sigh.. looking on the brighter side, i cant wait for 2 of my clothes to reach me, probably wed or thurs! :)

last but not least...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH FEN! :D

2010-06-26T03:24:00.002+08:00

i know i'm such a slow poke. have returned from japan for like 2 weeks already? and i've finally managed to upload all the photos from the 11 days trip. dont blame it, it was MOSTLY fb's fault. damned, i hate uploading so many photos there, i almost wanted to give up.

its like 3am and i'm still awake?! very amazing, it could be due to the red bull in the evening.
>.<

today's singing was great! :)
but towards the end when we were all leaving for home, it was abit saddening. CERTAIN special people leaving the place always leaves a tinge of sadness (while when 'some' pple leave, i'd be the first to cheer!)
the card was really sweet and surprising.. :)

oks, i better go catch some sleep so i can enjoy my 'master piece' toy story 3 in 3D. hehehe :)

2010-06-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

i know i should grow up and understand that not all things will go my way..

but i really cant stop feeling really disappointed.

i wished you had more confidence in yourself that you can take care of both you and i when we're in foreign grounds.

sigh..

2010-06-05T22:15:00.002+08:00

konnichiwa from japan!

the weather here is perfect for me! its like only 16-18 degrees every single day. shiokness. but the bad thing is that all the clothes that i packed are short, sleeveless. HAHAHA to me. but its alright, the cold is still bearable to me.. i want to go japan again with mr neo lah!

yesterday we went to a farm and the place is BEAUTIFUL!!! the place is freaking big, the air is freaking FRESH and its just sooo cool lah. i rode on a horse for the first time and the horse actually pooed in the middle of our journey. hahaha

the only bad thing about this trip is that we have to babysit the kids which is soo scary. the big one keeps whining, throwing tantrums, keep running away on her own, need to chase her ard.. and the small one needs to be carried all day, keeps vomitting milk and shit.

8 more babysitting days to go and then back to mr neo's armssss.. hahah
i miss him badly :(

2010-06-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

ok, i just finished packing my luggage. 4 hours more i need to wake up but i'm 80% awake. and i abused my yet to be finished cough medicine, cause i wanted to get the drowsy effect so i could at least have abit of rest.

while i was packing halfway just now, chatted a while with mr neo and very 丢脸-ly, i heard him tell me all the take care kind of stuff and i cried. cus its like the 1st/2nd time we're gonna be separated for so long without any contact. i know, laugh lah.. but i sad leh.. boohoo

so last minute-ly, i tried to find a bag big enough to put mimi n fat fat cage but the damned bag is too small. hais, now i gotta go dig another one or i'd have to ask er jie. SIGH.

i'm feeling abit sei sei now, maybe i should go rest now.

good nittteee

2010-06-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

it feels so surreal.. in a few hours time i'd be on the plane, to japan and i still dont feel the anxiety. is that good or bad?

i've yet to finish packing my luggage, yet to settle everything for unisim.

and i feel quite sad now.. cus mr neo is not here today.. and i'm leaving tmr already.. and 11 days apart... haiss.. why must he have duty today..
i miss him sia..

:(